If you were here The thought of you near me, makes me feel safe, The idea of you holding my pain seems to make everything go away, Yet the heaviness is very much there, Deep breaths as I take, Wondering if each day will pass with fond memories, or sheer misery as I wake I longed for your complete love, Warm tender words that made me feel human, Instead you left me feeling stolen, Stealing the energy you ungratefully took, The mental capacity that once gave me my strength, The

So the final stages of almost being free are in the balance. However, the abuse continues as "he" manages to cause futher more stress whilst applying for the divorce, accussing me of abuse, my "uncceptable" behaviour and much more. The psychological abuse continues and his poor attempt to break me down further more. I refuse to allow this to get me and look at as a small taste of "freedom" coming my way. I make prayers for him and anyone that crosses his path as I know the da

As the World Looks Down It's another chapter I face today, I wish you were next to me as I pray, The fear and anguish I feel, words cannot describe, All I want to do is to hide, The gut wrenching churning, Unspoken loss and yearning, The sad and happy memories that will be no more, The scary path of the unknown as I walk the floor, As the world looks down on me, I look to my future, So many decisions, so many choices, when once upon a time I didn't have any, Today, I have so